Content and trigger warning: Domestic Violence.
lt wasn’t always like this.
It isn’t all his fault.
I mean, everything has two sides,
so I’m in part to blame.
The fights and tears,
the pains and fears,
that’s not all there is.
Some days it’s all okay.
He tells me that he loves me,
that he’ll give me anything
because I’m his everything.
And some days,
it’s not so clear.
But I know it’s still there.
When he tells me that he’s sorry,
I know that he cares.
I don’t want much,
just for him to love me.
“Stop your fucking crying!
Can’t you take a joke?”
That was just a joke?
I just want him to love me.
“You’re a worthless
stupid
whore.”
Things crash and burn and break.
I just want him to love me.
“You brought this on yourself.”
There are bruises and cuts on my face.
But he always says he’s sorry,
that it will never happen again.
“I’m sorry but
you made me mad
you shouldn’t have brought that up.
I’m trying but
you always do this
you always pick these fights.
You know you can’t talk to me when I’m
angry,
drunk,
or high;
you should have known better,
so really,
it’s not my fault.”
He always said he was sorry,
and that means he loves me, right?
Author’s Post-Note: For anyone who is or has been in an abusive relationship, please PLEASE know that you are never alone. There are people who love you and people who can help you; there are resources for you to find support. You MATTER. You do not deserve to be mistreated, and you don’t have to suffer in silence.
US – National Domestic Violence Hotline: https://www.thehotline.org 800.799.SAFE (7233)
International Resources: https://safeandtogetherinstitute.com/international-domestic-violence-resources/
Savannah Watson 
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